Can One Expect Too Much?

I'm just laying here......


Christmas is over and the New Year is fast approaching. I feel like my time is running short to accomplish something major at my age. I'm scared I might fail at life and never accomplish anything big. Did I mention, failure is one of my biggest fears.

I've wondered long and hard about what this New Year may bring. I feel as though, I didn't achieve much of anything this year. What's wrong with me? I can't think of one thing I accomplished, okay maybe one thing....MOVING OUT...but that's it. NO BIGGY!! I use to be so inspired, motivated, and looking forward to figuring out my existence. I use to love a challenge. Now, none of those feelings seem to consume me.

Living here in Japan has definitely been tough and maybe I'm just feeling down today..............

What I envisioned my life to be like at age 25 is far from what it is currently. What happened? It’s like I took a left turn down a bumpy road full of potholes. This isn't to say, it's been a bad year, but just not a successful one. Maybe, I expect too much out of life, but then I wonder can one expect too much.....UGH?! Does that make sense? I feel confused!!

I don't know what I want out of life. I use to know, but not anymore. Is this Japan making me feel this way..... Or wait..... Was I feeling this way before I left for Japan? I can't remember!! Frustrating to say the least!! I guess I’m just ready to set sail along this journey called “LIFE”. I'm ready, ready to embark on the journey to a successful life and do all that I desire. Am I confusing you yet?

Well I gotta bounce. I'm about to go to the Aeon Mall and spend money I don't have. Yippee!! That always makes me feel better. Anyway, I usually like to end my post with a final thought, so before I go here are my last remarks for this post. .........

One thing I realize is this; figuring out your purpose or destination in life is hard, discouraging and complicated!! It can take you down a winding road and eventually you may come to a Dead End. I’m guessing… it’s what you do after you reach that point that counts. Maybe in life, one has to go down some dead ends, turn on hopeless, make a left on dissatisfied, and a right on frustration until one reaches his/her ultimate destination or purpose in life. I also think along the journey it's important to understand it's okay to stop and ask for some direction or guidance.

I guess all in all, I can’t give up in 2009. I need to make more of an effort to carry out my objectives, set bigger goals, stay focused, and expect more from myself. I don't need to let the road to success discourage me and I can’t be so quick to give up during tough times. I must stay determined and motivated. I can't let petty things get in my way and stop me from achieving all that I desire.

So, Here's a Toast to a Successful 2009!!!

Are My Feet Not Good Enough?

Have I mentioned how much I absolutely love shoes, makeup and purses?? Oh my gosh, I don't need clothes just a wicked pair of shoes, eyeshadow, eyeliner, lipliner, lipstick and a purse and I am straight! As far back as I can remember, shoes have always been my "thing". I LOVE THEM!! Depending on the shoe, I can feel super sexy, confident, different, weird, mischievous, or even model-ish. I know right.....who knew shoes could do all of that.

For me, shoes take on a life of its own once they are on my feet. Weird? Yes, I know!! Let me be clear though, I am not too fond of tennis shoes. Yes, there are nice ones out there, but just not for me. If you do catch me in a pair of tennis shoes, they usually aren't your typical Air Force Ones or Jordans. I usually go for the ones no one else likes, but hey that's just me. Let's just say, when it comes to shoes give me some HEELS and I am good to go!

Anyway enough of that, the reason for this post is because today I got to thinking how it would feel to slip my feet into a pair of $900.00 Christain Loubintin (Lou-boo-tahn) shoes or even a pair of $1200.00 Rupert Sanderson shoes. I wonder would I feel a difference in the quality? I wonder would I be able to walk in them all day? Man, what I would do for a pair!! Both of these designers shoe's are shown on the most glamorous feet, but what about mine?? Geeez!! I wish I had a pair. Maybe one day, I will build up the courage to splurge on a pair. Yep, Maybe One Day!! Until then, I will just keep Clinkity Clanking in my affordable sexy BCBG's or whatever looks good!

Oh the beauty........................

Christian Loubintin 455.00 pounds

He said his shoes are "timeless not trendy". I couldn't agree more!!

Rupert Sanderson 602.00 pounds

Sorry!!

Okay, it's been a few weeks since I last posted something and I am so sorry for not keeping you updated with the Days of My Life. As a matter of fact, I have been busy with life and all that it throws at me. I promise to keep you abreast all the latest "As my world turns".....coming soon!!