Can One Expect Too Much?

I'm just laying here......


Christmas is over and the New Year is fast approaching. I feel like my time is running short to accomplish something major at my age. I'm scared I might fail at life and never accomplish anything big. Did I mention, failure is one of my biggest fears.

I've wondered long and hard about what this New Year may bring. I feel as though, I didn't achieve much of anything this year. What's wrong with me? I can't think of one thing I accomplished, okay maybe one thing....MOVING OUT...but that's it. NO BIGGY!! I use to be so inspired, motivated, and looking forward to figuring out my existence. I use to love a challenge. Now, none of those feelings seem to consume me.

Living here in Japan has definitely been tough and maybe I'm just feeling down today..............

What I envisioned my life to be like at age 25 is far from what it is currently. What happened? It’s like I took a left turn down a bumpy road full of potholes. This isn't to say, it's been a bad year, but just not a successful one. Maybe, I expect too much out of life, but then I wonder can one expect too much.....UGH?! Does that make sense? I feel confused!!

I don't know what I want out of life. I use to know, but not anymore. Is this Japan making me feel this way..... Or wait..... Was I feeling this way before I left for Japan? I can't remember!! Frustrating to say the least!! I guess I’m just ready to set sail along this journey called “LIFE”. I'm ready, ready to embark on the journey to a successful life and do all that I desire. Am I confusing you yet?

Well I gotta bounce. I'm about to go to the Aeon Mall and spend money I don't have. Yippee!! That always makes me feel better. Anyway, I usually like to end my post with a final thought, so before I go here are my last remarks for this post. .........

One thing I realize is this; figuring out your purpose or destination in life is hard, discouraging and complicated!! It can take you down a winding road and eventually you may come to a Dead End. I’m guessing… it’s what you do after you reach that point that counts. Maybe in life, one has to go down some dead ends, turn on hopeless, make a left on dissatisfied, and a right on frustration until one reaches his/her ultimate destination or purpose in life. I also think along the journey it's important to understand it's okay to stop and ask for some direction or guidance.

I guess all in all, I can’t give up in 2009. I need to make more of an effort to carry out my objectives, set bigger goals, stay focused, and expect more from myself. I don't need to let the road to success discourage me and I can’t be so quick to give up during tough times. I must stay determined and motivated. I can't let petty things get in my way and stop me from achieving all that I desire.

So, Here's a Toast to a Successful 2009!!!

Are My Feet Not Good Enough?

Have I mentioned how much I absolutely love shoes, makeup and purses?? Oh my gosh, I don't need clothes just a wicked pair of shoes, eyeshadow, eyeliner, lipliner, lipstick and a purse and I am straight! As far back as I can remember, shoes have always been my "thing". I LOVE THEM!! Depending on the shoe, I can feel super sexy, confident, different, weird, mischievous, or even model-ish. I know right.....who knew shoes could do all of that.

For me, shoes take on a life of its own once they are on my feet. Weird? Yes, I know!! Let me be clear though, I am not too fond of tennis shoes. Yes, there are nice ones out there, but just not for me. If you do catch me in a pair of tennis shoes, they usually aren't your typical Air Force Ones or Jordans. I usually go for the ones no one else likes, but hey that's just me. Let's just say, when it comes to shoes give me some HEELS and I am good to go!

Anyway enough of that, the reason for this post is because today I got to thinking how it would feel to slip my feet into a pair of $900.00 Christain Loubintin (Lou-boo-tahn) shoes or even a pair of $1200.00 Rupert Sanderson shoes. I wonder would I feel a difference in the quality? I wonder would I be able to walk in them all day? Man, what I would do for a pair!! Both of these designers shoe's are shown on the most glamorous feet, but what about mine?? Geeez!! I wish I had a pair. Maybe one day, I will build up the courage to splurge on a pair. Yep, Maybe One Day!! Until then, I will just keep Clinkity Clanking in my affordable sexy BCBG's or whatever looks good!

Oh the beauty........................

Christian Loubintin 455.00 pounds

He said his shoes are "timeless not trendy". I couldn't agree more!!

Rupert Sanderson 602.00 pounds

Sorry!!

Okay, it's been a few weeks since I last posted something and I am so sorry for not keeping you updated with the Days of My Life. As a matter of fact, I have been busy with life and all that it throws at me. I promise to keep you abreast all the latest "As my world turns".....coming soon!!

Date Night

The other day, Alex took me out on a HOT date, to a pizza joint called "Bambinos". I haven't had pizza in so long. Yes, you can get pizza here in Japan. However, depending on where you go, you can end up with some pretty unusual things on top of your pizza. How does squid or octopus sound? Mmmm yummy right? So, you think that's weird?? It gets worst!! How about a runny egg, smack dab in the middle of your pizza!!! 

Now, with all of that being said, I can say Bambino’s pizza was ABSOLUTELY NOTHING LIKE THAT. Trust Me! Otherwise, I wouldn't have eaten there. It was very westernized and full of things that looked familiar to me on the menu. Oh yeah, did I mention how intimate and romantic the setting was? The place was dimly lit with candles and only a few seating areas. It was a perfect spot for a first date, however this wasn’t quite our first date.

Anyway, I ordered a small pepperoni pizza and Alex had seafood pasta. Now, tell me why....when my pizza arrived it looked like a plate swimming in cheese. KNIFE AND FORK PLEASE!! I never thought in a million years, I could have toooooo much cheese on a pizza. I couldn’t even see the freaking pepperoni for goodness sakes. Geeez!!! Get this though…. My small pizza cost $15.00 (USD) and was only the size of a Personal Pan Pizza from Pizza Hut!! So, how much do you think it cost for a large pizza and might I add the large here is about a medium size there in the states??...................Yep, $30.00!! It definitely makes you appreciate the prices Stateside. 

As expected though, the pizza was pretty good and quite filling too. The cheese definitely played a big role in that. Overall, the night was pleasant. It ended with both of us crashed out on the couch and tummy's full to capacity. Did someone say I-TIS...........

Sleepless in Japan: Starring Me!!

Sometimes, I question the things that I do.........

Question to self: "Why, in the hell did you drink that COFFEE, knowing good and darn well you wouldn't be able to sleep tonight?? It's 5:15 in the morning!! What were you thinking??"

Help, I can't sleep!!

The Angel Wears Prada!!

I know!! I know!! I should probably be sleeping right now (its going up to 3a.m.), but my body has unfortunately gotten use to going to bed pretty late!! Ugh!! I hate that! I have to do better. Anyway, I have been back since Sunday from Korea. I had a great trip and would definitely go back just to shop. Okay, I know what your thinking... And yes, I said previously they (the Koreans) were bugging the living day lights out of me..... but hey..... if I had to do it all over again, I would, this time with more money. 

There were so many things I wanted to buy, but with so little cash and time. Everything was being sold at extremely reasonable prices. I was in heaven!! Even with the low prices, many of the tourists were still trying to talk the Korean’s down and Guess What? It worked!!! I on the other hand, wasn’t as successful. BASTARDS!!! Nevertheless, I was able to pick up a few good buys and I can say, I am pleased with all of my purchases. 

Here you go.....take a look at two of my favorite items purchased in Korea… Still smiling because I love them both!!

I know it's nothing flashy, but I love it because it's soooo simple, it's me, and it's PRADA!! What more could you possibly ask for!!

8:57p.m. Touch Down

I've made it.

I'm in Korea.

Well, I can say I have already begun to notice the extreme difference between the Japanese and Koreans. Can we say Aggressive Hustlers!! The Korean's don't play about trying to get your money. Immediately after exiting the airport, I instantly felt the need to clench my purse closer to me. Pretty bad huh? I know!! I'm not sure what it was really, maybe the aggressiveness of the locals had me tripping. They were all up in my face, wham! “Come!! Come!! I give you ride to hotel in my taxi, pretty lady!” UGH!! Every turn I made a Korean was right there, literally. Grrrrrr!! I guess times are hard for everybody, but Dang Give Me Some Freaking Space!!

Wow Five!!

As I sit here, one hour into our flight, stomach bubbling, knees cramped, listening to Bonney James, on my way to Korea, I can't help but to think how Korea will be the 5^th country I have visited for the year. Wheeeew, I know right……..Shheeessshh!!

I can definitely say that God has blessed me not only individually, but other people's blessing have become my blessing. Does this make sense? The reason I say this, is because I haven’t had to pay for any of my trips, thus far!! I don't know what I would do without my Mom and Alex. Thank you both so much. 

So, to that end, remember to thank God for all that he does and has done for you, but moreover thank him for the people he has placed in your life.

“Blessed are those who give without remembering. And blessed are those who take without forgetting.”

Bernard Meltzer

Time Waits For No One!

Yesterday, I realized I couldn't have named my blog anything else but the “Days of MY Life”. Geeeez!! Talk about a long day full of dead ends..... It all began yesterday morning when my boyfriend "Alex" and I were SUPPOSE to be leaving for Korea, for a few days. We got everything ready from the night before and the only thing left for us to do, was get to the airport on TIME!! Well, let’s just say NOTHING WENT ACCORDING TO PLAN!
Let's see where shall I start.................

First, we missed the 1:00p.m bus that would have taken us to Narita Airport, which is 2 hours a way. So, what did we end up doing?? Taking the over crowded train all the way too the Airport. NEVER AGAIN!! Talk about clostro phobia!!!
Three hours later, after switching trains countless times, we arrived at the airport with our oversized suitcases! Ugh!! We make it to the check-in counter, only to discover we were too late!! The doors of the plane were closed!! "Alex" was pissed!! Oddly I wasn't. My only thought was "this day can't get any worst".

In the end, we had to travel all the waaaay back home, but this time by bus.....Only to do it all over again Today!!

Allow Me to Introduce MySelf or Maybe Not....

Yesterday after talking to my best friend, I got to thinking about a lot of things, pertaining to my current situation and this of course lead to other thoughts and eventually after much thought, I decided to create a blog. I figured this would be a good way for me to share my time here in Japan. Anyway, I don’t really feel like doing a formal introduction, with the whole my name is blah blah blah, but I’m sure through post to come, you will get to learn more about me. For now, here's a little something.....
 

I just moved to Japan about 3 months ago because:

(1). I have a boyfriend here, who I'll call Alex (i think)..

(2). I was ready for a change.

(3). I had never lived away from my family.
(4). I will be teaching ESL
(5). I came on vacation here in the summertime and fell in love with Japan.
(6). I've been out of school for almost a year now and I'm ready to conquer the world.

More about me........

• I always have a thousand thoughts a day and it makes it hard for me to get things done. 
• I have a very active mind and I get lost in thought easliy.
• I always have tons I want to do and see and never feel like I have enough time.

Anyway, you can thank my best friend for me starting this blog. She has been telling me for quite sometime that I should start a blog, so here I am today, starting my blog!! I am actually excited about it and will keep you all updated as the Days of My Life continue…